OK, I am doing something pro-active to help me! I am on my way to the beach. I LOVE the beach. And I really love the beach when I do not have to watch 7 kids! So, hopefully, when I get there, it will be at least half way nice to take a walk and just sit and watch the waves.
On the beach, I see God's hand so much clearer than here in the house! (duh!!) Just sitting and watching- maybe I'll see some dolphins !! It clears the mind and calms the soul.
THE JOHNSON CHRONICLES: FOLLOW THE JOHNSON FAMILY'S UPS AND DOWNS!
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I hope the beach helps you find some 'center' - but it will take as long as it does! As for 'what you say to people' - this time is really your time now....you are struggling with the one thing that - as a parent - is the most impossible...we are not supposed to bury our young, it's their job to bury us. Aside from the loss of a loved one - this fact makes it so much more difficult to accept. What do you say to people? What is true....I'm not doing OK - I'm hurting, I'm angry, I'm feeling an incredible loss, I'm angry with my God for making me experience this, you say anything and everything you are feeling.
And you keep moving slow - as slow as you need to....
And you listen - you listen to your kids, you listen to your husband, and when they say things you really try to hear what they are saying.....
And you might just notice one day - when you are ready - that you are hearing the Words of God through them.....
And then you say 'Thank You' - to them for the care and support - and when you are ready - to God for speaking to you.....
God will be there when you are ready....and when you are walking on the beach you'll notice how many sets of footprints you see....and you'll know just who is carrying who....
We'll keep you in our hearts and prayers -
hugs - aus and co.
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